Happy Nightmares

Last night I dreamed that you forgave me
All my burdens washed away and
All I had to do was say,
I wanted this. That I was ready

We came together in a loft
just like the one in RRG
You were happy, you were calm,
You knew what you meant to me

And when I woke up I threw up
And then threw on my shoes and ran
Even though my ankles hurt
Even though I coughed and bled

Filled my ears with Rubberneck
Felt grateful that it was cool
Cried as I ran up the street
-I hadn't even hit track four

I will never have another
Night like that one in Kentucky
Singing mashes, sharing sodas,
Perfect without hardly touching

Why do I want your forgiveness?
You have never cared for mine
You don’t even think you hurt me
You still occupy my mind

Maybe someday I'll dream of you
And not wake desperate to die
Maybe because you won't hate me
Maybe I'll just heal with time